This Summer

This summer can't be summed up into a simple statement of saying it was good, or bad, or anything like that. This summer has been rollercoasterish and transformational.

I think it definitely started while the school year was going on. I auditioned for BFA, and I was sick, unprepared, and not ready for auditioning or even getting in. I did it, I performed it as I rehearsed it, which still wasn't very good, but that's what happens. It's ok, it's all in the past now. :-)

Then, as soon as I was done, I had two major things I had to do. I had to do my Characterization paper, and I had to do my realism analysis. For those that don't know, Characterization paper means 42 pages at least of observations on a person, you're rehearsel time, etc etc. Yeah, I didn't do any of it until that night. That was not smart on my part. Live and learn right?

Well, I did the paper and project on my brother. I figured hey, I know everything about him, I can just let it go, and trust that if something were to come up, I could make a very logical guess, or I could tell the truth which I'd know. Well, we got in there, and oh my God it was so great! I didn't know what was going to happen, but I was ready for it. Wait, isn't that what acting is supposed to be like? Hmm...:-) Anywho, it went splendidly! So when I stopped pretending to be my brother, every acting lesson I had learned finally made sense! Damn it! Why couldn't I have had this revelation earlier!? Like 3 days earlier?! At my BFA auditions?!

Well, as you could probably tell, I didn't get into BFA, which is fine because that's the way it's supposed to be and I finally understand a lot more about acting. Acting had always been an anxiety with me. I wanted and still do want to be great. However, it never made sense to me. I put way too much pressure on myself, and that was not cool. I still do sometimes now, but not nearly NEARLY as much.

So, I relaxed cuz I understood it a lot more now, so that relaxation seeped in through my pores. Anywho, I auditioned for Much Ado about Nothing, which I had heard it was Midsummer, or Taming of the Shrew, or even As You Like It. Finally, I found out about it being Much Ado. Well, getting to the audition, it was like a reunion! I saw alot of the guys that I was in Romeo and Juliet with, and some of my favoritest people were there, and it was SO much fun! I knew I was gonna get in, but I definitely didn't mind if I didn't cuz I had so much fun at the audition!

Well, then the cast list was posted, and I got in! However, I didn't get the part that I wanted. I wanted Benedick, of course, cuz I thought I finally deserved a lead. I learned once again, that it doesn't matter if it's the lead or whatever. A part is a part.

So, rehearsels start and I'm a little dismayed because the director and I didn't see eye to eye with who the Prince Don Pedro was supposed to be. It turns out she was right on a major thing, and I was too stubborn to budge. So, I got super close with most of the rest of the cast. I tell you what everyone, that was the most fun I have ever had with a cast. We went out, we karaoked, we went to open mike nights, we swapped stories, it was fantastic.

I learned to stop complaining about not having what I want, and enjoying the things you have. I made such great friends through that cast. I am a more social person, I am less awkward, and nervous, and I'm more of a human being that is continuing to learn.

I've finally started to become what I wanted: a human being/actor instead of a neurotic wanna be actor/ human. I'm truly enjoying life. It has it's ups and downs, but even the downs are better than some of my old ups.

This has been a fantastic summer for so many different reasons. Thank you all! I know it's gonna stay awesome cuz I move into my apartment tommorow! Woohoo!

Stay yourself everyone!

Tim