And now for something completely different

From my last post. haha.

I think these past couple of days, I've been coming down from something. I am not used to it, so it made me uncomfortable.

Now, I am up at 4 AM, and I am doing chores I should have done during normal human hours, but have neglected because "I don't have enough time". That's such a bull shit phrase. It's a cop out when a person doesn't really mean it. College students use it like they use...a dirty bra that they haven't washed. It starts off being true because you don't how to manage your time, you are excited to be on your own finally, then after a while you start to buckle under the pressure, then pretty soon you are used to the rough and tumble. Then, you finally wash the bra, and you're back where you started. Then one of these days, you're boobs get bigger and you have to get a new, better fitting bra. This is such a strange metaphor I'm using...

I have learned about myself that I can't completely rush into everything yet. I have to work a bit at a time. See, I've known that for a while. You don't swallow an entire apple, you take bites off, a chewable piece at a time. I've known this, I've been taught this, but I haven't accepted that for me, because all I see around me is everyone's result. What I didn't realize is that they had to work hard on getting to that result. Or they were/are just as deluded as I was, and got it all done really quickly and 1/4 ass-edly.

I'm gonna have to read a paragraph a few times before I get it, I may have to summarize it for myself, I may have to come back to it later, I may have to do whatever, but I have to do whatever works for me. Not what is right for everyone else, but what is right for me. Hmm...that's underlined, bold faced, and italicised. What could that mean?

Laura Lane says that acting is a process, and that such is life. Well, I'm gonna go even further than that and say that everything is a process! Ok, maybe I should pull back and say that she's right. The two go hand in hand, and that's what I'm learning after I've fallen on my face multiple times.

Welp... *raises a glass. Here's to knowing your lessons before you actually absorb them, and here's to failing and learning, but never failing to learn! *chugs liquid that is in glass.

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