So...today was weird...

Well, Paul...here's a new entry for your brand new homepage! :-)

Today was a very strange day...

I saw Batboy the Musical that my school is putting on, and you know you've had a weird day, when seeing that particular musical isn't the weirdest thing that day.

Anyways, so here's what happened. I learned some lessons today too, so we'll get to those in a second.

Today, I woke up to Marilyn Manson's "This is the New Shit". (That probably explains a lot, but let's continute) I was late to class, and I came in wearing my pj's and my backpacking boots. There was a pop quiz and I got a 50. I knew two of the questions because the first one was what was my name, and who wrote the Republic. (Plato. We're reading it for class. Well, I haven't yet..)

So then I went home and did nothing 'cept eat and get on the internet for a long time. I was looking at the replies on my Facebook when I noticed someone "liked" my blog from last night. Interesting..So I looked further, and this person totally misinterpreted what I said in my blog. So, I texted some of my friends, (not to embarass the person, but to get advice) and so they told me their different P.O.V's.

Then, I got on AIM, and told one of my friends about a girl I liked and how it got misconstrued by someone else. Then the someone else got on AIM, and I had to tell them that it wasn't about them, and they signed off, probably not too terribly happy..Also, one of my other friends has a really rediculous rumor about her and her new boyfriend, and it's bullshit. People just don't want to grow up it seems like.

So, then I talked with a friend who is connected to girl I like, and I found out some bad news about that friend. This made me really upset. I also found out that girl I like is really interested in another guy, which is fine. It's really whatever. I'm upset, but I'm not really upset, just cuz things didn't go far at all. I mean all we've done is talk in the past and chat on Facebook.

So, then I saw Batboy, and that was a really great show! I have some nitpicks, but that's cuz that's what I do. :-) I must say that Braden Bradley did a FANTASTIC job as Batboy.

So after Batboy was over, I walked home, because I always feel really awkward after shows, whether I'm in the show, or after a show I watched. I'll figure out why eventually.

So, I walked home, and one of my best friends told me that he really respected me for Blogging, and I didn't think it was that big of a deal, but what he said around that made me feel really good. So, I'm gonna try this up a lot more. :-D

Now...lessons I learned today, or things I've noticed.

I love to watch musicals for the most part now. When I watch them, I see them as something I want to be in. It takes a lot of work, concentration, talent, personality, energy, and it would force me to get even more out of my comfort zone. I watch some of the performers, and some of them are naturally talented, but others work really hard and make it look easy. That's what I admire about it I guess. The people that work hard. I want to do that.

My next point is that because I want to get in a musical, that means I have to get in better shape, I have to work hard, and I have take control of what I can. I keep saying that..

I think I'm going to call the Counseling Center tommorow and make an appointment. There isn't anything pressing right now, but I want to talk with a counselour about my laziness. I am tired of being that way, and I want to take the steps necessary to get out of that. I do a lot, but that doesn't mean I work hard. It's complicated.

My mom told me something this weekend, that has really helped me put things in perspective, and it's really corny, and it's slightly embarassing, and of course my mom would say it.

She told me that I am a great and really cool person, and that I just haven't gotten my time yet to show everyone what I'm capable of(or something along those lines). Now, that's really cheesy, sappy, and mom's make their little boys feel better with it, but that really, REALLY made me feel better. It made me really confident in myself, and it made me really believe in myself. It also made me more humble in a strange way also.

I was also thinking of Brad Pitt when I was walking home. I know he's not known as a great actor, but I think he's really good. I am inspired by him because he could've just been a heartthrob sell out, but he worked really hard, went to a bunch of acting classes, and learned all kinds of acting techniques, and now he's doing some really good work. That's how I'd like to be. Not famous necessairily, but putting really good work out there.

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