Nostalgia

So...I can't find a philosophy book that I need to study for my quiz, but whatever.

I'm watching my old high school UIL play. It's not as great as I thought before, but damn that was a tough play for us high schoolers. I mean it has some good moments, but we were in high school. heh.

I just realized watching that I wasn't relaxed. I wasn't comfortable with who I am/was. There were some people that were alot more relaxed, comfortable back then. There's part of me that's beating my old self up because I didn't feel like I belonged, when all I had to do was relax a little bit. But then there's the bigger part of me that is glad that I've learned more about me, and how to be me instead of what other people want me to be. I still struggle, but I'm human.

Watching the play, I can feel nostalgia. It's a good feeling. I do wish I was closer to those people, because they are all pretty cool, and not in the way it's used now. We were all different, and we were quite the motley crew. There was drama on and offstage, I was in a relationship, I didn't understand the play or how to do it, and I didn't have a social life.

This is all part of growing up. I may never see some of them again, I may work with them again, or I may see some of them for the rest of my life. Who knows?